What if i love you by brea isomee (books to read to get smarter .TXT) 📖

I dropped my head in to my hands . . . . . pregnant . I know i love Destiny and i know if she's pregnant that i'll love her and our child no matter what . I refuse to ask her to get an abortion , in my eyes only weak men do that shit . If the baby comes out with mental problem or something like that , it won't change the way i see the child . It'll still be mines and i'll cherish it and love it no matter who has anything to say about it . I smiled a little , i hope it's a boy .

" Damon ?" Destiny stood in the doorway in one of my t shirts looking as sexy as ever with a worried look on her face " you okay ? What happened ?"

I held out my hand for her to take and i pulled her down onto my lap " you know you could be pregnant ."

" yeah , " she said lightly dropping her head " i thought about it . What ? Do you want me to get an abortion or something ?"

" no , i want the exact opposite . Look , ma' was saying how the child could have birth defects , and i just wanted to let you know . It's not 100% though , and i know in my heart that if you're carrying my seed that it'll come out a healthy , beautiful baby . There's no doubt in my mind okay ? I love you , i want yo be with you , and i want this baby ."

A tear slipped down Destiny's cheek , and she leaned in to my chest soaking my Shirt with plenty more silent tears . " it's okay , Dez . You trust me right ? " She shook her head yes " then it's gon' be okay , aight ? Just rest , that's all i need you to do ."

I rested my hand on her stomach rubbing it lightly as she laid down in my bed and drifted off to sleep . I'm going to be a father , i repeated over and over in my head .

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Chapter three - part 3

-Destiny-

I let the hot water run down my body later on that night , massaging my skin and relaxing me . At this point my nerves are just shot . Pregnant ? It's just shocking . Well , not that shocking i guess , i know we didn't use a condom when we had sex , i know but i don't really care . I don't know how i feel about having this child though . I know i won't kill it , i know that , but what if it comes out mentally ill ? It'll be , sad . I'll still love he or she just the same and i'm sure Damon will too but , i want my child to be perfectly healthy . To be perfectly honest with myself and everyone else , i don't know how i feel about this situation .

" come here , babe ." Damon said .

I just stepped out of his shower soaking wet with a towel wrapped around my body . I dried off and put on one of his t shirts before i walked over to him " what , Damon ?"

" what's wrong ?"

" i don't know . I'm just thinking . I'm scared , Damon ."

" it's okay to be scared , aight ? It 's going to be okay . I promise you that baby , okay ? Look at me . It's going to be okay . "

I shook my head , not knowing whether to believe him or not . For the rest of the night it began to feel as though i'm all alone , a feeling that passed as i awoke Wednesday morning .

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-Jasmine-

I wake up every morning since me and Destiny's fight feeling more pissed than i ever have been . Not only have i lost some one that was very close to me but she also kicked my ass , just adding insult to injury . I'll never say she kicked my ass out loud but , it's not like everyone doesn't already know it . The video is on everyon's facebook page and on everyon'e phones , and i have bruises to show that she got me good . Busted lip , Black eye . I went to school the day after the fight and i could just feel everyone's eyes on me , just making me feel worst than i already did . None of my so called friends wanted to talk to me , and no boy is interested in me . Well , not that any were even interested in me before . But now the count has dropped even lower . And Damon . . . he doesn't return my phone calls or anything but i know he likes me , he has to . If he doesn't then he wouldn't have flirted with me , point blank . And that's all there is to it .

As much as i don't want to , i lazily dragged my body from my bed and began to get ready for summer school . I put on a pair of loose jeans and a tight fitted t shirt , with Nike slippers . It's not like i have any one to impress or any one looking at me for any reason other than to point and stare . I shouldn't have challenged Destiny , maybe she was right , maybe Damon doesn't like me . I mean , after all , she is his sister , she should know . And then , i already had know Destiny is good with her hands , why i even started anything is beyond me ! I should have just sat there , not said an ything and thanked her for telling me , but i'm stupid like that , so stupid that i didn't .

" homework people , hand it in . Pass it forward ." The teacher said to the 15 of us sitting in the class room for summer school

I pulled my homework from my folder and tried to pass it forward but the girl sitting in front of me wouldn't take it , so i stood up and began walking to the front to turn it in when a foot reached out in front of me and before i can stop myself i'm stumbling forward landing flat on my face . The room erupted in laughter . . . . this is all Destiny's fault .

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-Damon-

I woke up around 11 a.m. on this morning to hear Destiny in my bathroom getting sick again . I didn't go help her , i just lay here , listening . It really sounds like this shit is killing her : not being able to keep a meal down , being sleepy alot and shit . I hate seeing her like this really , it's all my fault . I should have just kept my hands to myself like my mother said to .

She brushed her teeth and came back to lay with me . I kissed her cheek " i'm sorry , Dez ."

" it's okay . Don't apologize . Please , don't . It's not your fault ."

" yes it is , actually . I should have just let you stay a virgin and let me stay horny ."

" i wanted you to . So shut up and kiss me ."

" kiss you where vomit has been pouring out of for 2 days straight ? Hell no . "

She truly looks like she's abut to break down in tears , she pulled her body away from mines " fine ."

" baby , " i tried to pull her back to me but she didn't budge " i was kidding."

" don't , don't touch me ."

She got up from the bed and walked from my bedroom .

All i can do is shake my head , what did i do ? Am i fucking up or is it her that's just got emotional problems or some shit ?!

Whatever the reason , i followed Destiny into the kitchen where my mom and D'shawn sat at the table across from each other talking . Destiny sat down on the side of the table with D'Shawn . So , What do i do now .

" oh honey , it's nice to see you ."

Destiny put on a fake smile " yeah , yeah , i had to come in here before someone dies because of their stupidity ."

D'Shawn looked from me to Destiny enjoying the show . All i want is to get her out of the room so we can talk in private .

" Destiny , can i speak with you in the other room ?"

" can you go to hell first ?"

" i can , but only if i'm dragging you with me , now can we talk ?!" I raised my voice a notch or two .

My mother shook her head " son , i wouldn't do that if i was you . Her hormones -"

" Damon can you please just fucking go ! I'm sick of your face ."

I understand her hormones and all but she's making this too damn hard . And anyways , she's only a couple days pregnant . I went over to were she's sitting and picked her up out of the chair carrying her bridal style . But i ended up putting her down after a few steps because she began to squirm and beat against my chest .

" dammit Destiny ! "

" what ?! I know your not about to blame this shit on me , you're the one who keeps making smart ass comments about the morning sickness !"

" this is the first time i've said anything about it . And i'm trying to fucking apologize if yo' stubborn ass would let me ."

" oh , so not only do you not want me , but now i'm stubborn ."

" i don't want you ? Where the hell are you getting that idea from ."

She went from anger to sadness in a matter of seconds " your gonna want another girl , i'm gonna get fat ."

" aww , babe . " I pulled Destiny into my arms and she began to sob into my chest . But not at all do i mind .

I heard D'shawn talking to my mom " if i didn't know better i'd think they are going out ."

" Shawn shut the hell up ," my mother said .

There was a quick silence and D'shawn spoke again " wait , morning sickness ? Is Destiny pregnant ?!"

" yes ! " i screamed at him just hoping he would shut up . But it didn't work .

" so , uh , who's the father ?"

I don't say anything to that , neither does my mom or Destiny . The only sounds that can be heard in the room are Destiny's sobs .

" wait , " D'shawn started