What if i love you by brea isomee (books to read to get smarter .TXT) 📖

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" excuse you ? Girl , i was drunk as fuck last night . I didn't even know my left from my right so anything that happened was strictly the alcohol . Man , i got a baby on the way , you didn't even get as far as my girlfriend ."

Jasmine shook her head as the stylist continued to try and curl in " all i'm saying is , you won't be saying that in 9 months when you got another baby on the way ! Play with that , bitch ."

" little girl , " i didn't even realise Keshia standing beside me " i swear he just said you weren't even his girl , meaning you didn't really mean to much to him . I know all about you , girls who pin their babies on a random man . Not this one . So get your hair done and then get out . "

Jasmine scolded me but didn't say anything to Keshia . I laughed out loud . Man , i know for a fact didn't anything happen between me and Jasmine . I might have been drunk - very very drunk - but i wasn't stupid . I know how to keep it in my pants

Keshia smiled at me as she turned the swivel salon chair i'm sitting in to face the mirror " what would you like today , Damon ? You want them re-twisted again ?"

" nope . I want them cut off . By the time i leave here i want a fade ."

" um , are you sure " she took the rubber bands from my hair to play with my dreads " the 3 years i've known you you have cherished these dreads ."

" Keshia , me and you both know how fast my hair grows . I figure i'll just try something new and if i don't like it , i'll be visiting you in about a month ."

" okay ." She got the scissors and began to cut the dreads a few at a time the closest to my head that she can without cutting me " so , what's this about you having a baby ?"

I sighed " i knew that was coming . But , yeah , my girl is pregnant . In about another 8 months i'ma have me a little Minni me ."

" word ? You better treat that girl right Damon , unlike how you did me ."

I looked in the mirror at her face and i saw a hint of pain , hell it was more than a hint of pain . It was a whole lot of pain written all across her face .

Me and Keshia have history . 3 years of history to be exact . We started dating back when i was 15 and she was already 18 . Age didn't really matter though because she fell for me harder than anything in the world . and i admit i was falling for her even though i tried to hide it . I spent countless numbers of nights at her house and all my weekends were dedicated on her and only her . We'de go to the movies , the mall , have picnics , anything as long as we were together . And then a couple of months ago , i say about 3 or 4 , that's when i started to date Jessie . My feelings for Keshia never faded not one bit but Jessie was just a play toy . It wasn't like i was falling for her at all . Then one night i was over Keshia's apartment and i was in the shower , trying to get my shit together before i went back home and out of no where Keshia stormed into the bathroom throwing my phone into the shower with me . She was screaming , yelling , everything . She'd gone through my phone . She say pictures and videos she didn't need to see , she saw texts she didn't need to see . It was a complete disaster . She broke down crying in front of me and there wasn't a damn thing i could do at all .

No doubt , i still love her to this day .

" Keshia , you know i love you girl . It's just , the weakness got to me . You gone always be my number one lady , no matter what ."

" yeah okay . " she tried to sound tough but the blush on her cheeks is saying other wise . I know she still loves me . But i've got Destiny and my child to think about . And plus if i go back to Keshia i'll just end up hurting her again , the same way i'm afraid i'll end up hurting Destiny .

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It took a hour and a half for Keshia to cut off the dreads and give me a fade and a shape up . I stood up out of the chair leaning closer to the mirror inspecting everything " damn , Keesh . I like it . I look weird as hell but i like it ."

Keshia came to stand beside me and held out her hand " money please ."

" girl , stop acting like i won't pay you . Besides , you know where i like anyways ." I handed her a 50 dollar bill and before she can turn away i grab her gently by her waist pulling her body toward mine until our mid sections are pressed together " you know , i didn't hurt you on purpose ."

" so , cheating on me wasn't on purpose , you just repeatedly slept with a girl for the hell of it ?" She let out a sarcastically laugh as tears coated her eyes " you know Damon , i loved you ."

" you still do ."

" you're right , i still do .But , you've got a baby on the way . You shouldn't even be touching me like this ."

I don't know what came over me , maybe i'm trying to prove something , i slid my hands down her waist to her butt , squeezing tightly " i love my unborn child , i love my girlfriend , but i still love you too . "

I kissed her forehead and walked to the front of the salon back over to Destiny . My brain is working , wheels are turning , and the the shit hurts . I love Destiny , yes . And i love Keshia as well . Maybe i still love Keshia because i'm afraid to love Destiny 100 percent because she's my sister . No , that's not it . Maybe i mistook the sisterly love i have for Destiny and turned it into something more . No , that's not it either . I've gotta face facts , i love Destiny and Keshia both , and it's some confusing ass shit .

Destiny stood up from her chair as she saw me walking to her , she's got a pained look on her face , not even noticing the fact that my dreads are gone ." babe , what's wrong ."

" my back , you took so long that i went next door to the piercing place ."

" so ?"

She's about to show me something on her back but before she does she finally notices my dreads are gone " Damon ! No you didn't ."

" yeah , i kind of did . Like it ?"

" love it boy ! " She hugged me and pulled away , turning around and lifting up her wife beater in the back to reveal 2 sterling silver studs in her back right above where her butt starts . There is one placed in each one of her back dimples . It's cute , unique .

I touched one and she jumped a little , pulling away and dragging me ouside " do you like 'em?"

" shockingly , yeah . But let's go . Because this isn't my surprise ."
-Destiny-

As soon as i stepped both feet out of Damon's car in the mall parking lot i hear my name being yelled , or rather squealed . I closed the door and turned around greeted with a familiar face that i haven't seen since 8th grade since we moved to the suburbs .

" Gabby ?"

Gabriella threw her arms around me and we hung onto each other for dear life , ignoring Damon behind me who is impatiently clearing his throat . Hugging her i once again feel love . Me and Gabriella used to be the closest of friends in middle and elementary school . We both went to our first party together , had sleepovers almost every week , we even had some of the each others clothes . In fact the shorts on my body right now belong to her . For some reason i just never found myself able to throw them away . After all , Gabby is my child hood best friend !

We both pulled away at the same time , Gabriella looked me up and down smiling " i'm so glad i saw you . It's been at least 4 years , right ?"

" yeah girl . four long years . Sorry we lost touch . At the time , there was just so much going on with the move and all ."

" don't worry about it . We've got serious catching up to do ."

" okay , " i smiled at her as i hooked one of my arms with her's and grabbed Damon's hand with the other " who are you here with ?"
" oh yeah , " we stopped at the entrance " i forgot about those knuckleheads . My brother and his friends . "

" i never knew you had a brother ."

" step brother . And believe me , he is fine ! Maybe i can hook you all up ."

Damon heavily sighed and as if on cue i hear my name being called from another direction , except this time i don't want to turn and see who it is because that voice . . . . that voice , i know it . And that's not a good thing at this moment . Maybe if i was alone then i would love to hear that voice but right now it's bringing goose bumps to my very skin .

" okay , Gabby , i'll see you inside ."

I pulled Damon inside te mall , never turning to look in the direction of the voice . It's Maceo's voice of course . I hope that's not Gabriella's brother . God , come to think about it , they do look alike . Shit ! What have i gotten myself into now . All i'm trying to do is have a good day with Damon , that's all . Well , it's a big mall , maybe i won't see them again . . . . maybe .

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-Damon-

She grabbed a tighter hold on my hand and begins dragging me into the mall acting more than strange . Her eyes are darting all around the mall like she's extremely scared of something . Time and time again