I wasn't always like this by Cama seeney (web based ebook reader txt) 📖

Alpha controls his pack by scaring them. If the head fighters are gone that’s it they should high tail quickly.’ She replied devishly grinning.

 

Remember there are good wolves out there, but if they fight you first don’t forget to fight dirty.’ I called after his retreating back. ‘When did you come such a knowledgeable Beta?’ I asked rolling over and smiling at her. ‘When did you become such a kick ass Alpha?’ She called in response growing softly.

 

‘The second I realised my worth.’ I replied smiling softly. She grinned back ‘Wow, that only took you eighteen years!’ She called. ‘What brought this realisation on?’ She asked curiously. ‘When I realised I didn’t need Sol, he led me here. He led me to my Son, maybe that’s all the Moon goddess has in mind for me. Or like Liam thinks maybe it’s just the start.’ I responded deep in thought.

 

‘So was that before or after he caught you sucking faces with Carter?’ She asked throwing a pillow at me. ‘After.’ I replied giggling and throwing the pillow back. ‘So what was it like, kissing such a hunk?’ She asked rolling to face the ceiling. ‘I can almost see you fantasising about Gabe.’ I called back sweetly. ‘He might just be you know.’ I told her, ‘What?’ She asked rolling back over to look me in the eye, hers shone brightly. ‘Your mate, don’t act like you weren’t thinking it.’ I said giggling again, I couldn’t help it. We’d been searching all our lives for faithful, good warriors. We couldn’t help it we fantasised a little.

 

‘Screw you and your sonic brain.’ She retorted sighing. ‘You do realise that made no sense at all right. It’s not a really good ear or a screw driver.’ She just stuck her tong out in response. ‘When we’re done here I think I need to talk to Sol.’ I whispered sleepily. ‘Why?’ She murmured back. ‘I need to find out why.’ And then blackness.

 

I woke up with unbelievable back ache, ‘Ugh, why am I led on the floor!’ I groaned rolling over to face Millie who was drooling on my bed. ‘Hey quit drooling on my bed!’ I shouted my pillow at her head. ‘Hey!’ She called back groggily pushing the well-aimed pillow off of her face. ‘Because some idiotic force made you exercise now shh.’ She called groggily pulling her blanket over her head. ‘Nothin wrong with a bit of exercise.’ I practically sang, but decided it was a bad idea to move.

 

‘Shall we break into Sol’s cage, I really need to know why.’ I spoke softly, as if not to be overheard. I couldn’t mentally feel Liam, he was out or asleep. Or maybe he just didn’t want me to know he was listening. Hmm. ‘Okay, I kinda need a break from this room anyway. How do you suppose we do this?’ She asked sounding rational. I sighed, ‘Man we need music. Something bond-y. Maybe pink panther.’ I said giggling as I made my way over to the window.

 

I opened the window a little worried, looking around the small room I smiled. Putting one leg over the white plastic I climbed where the glass normally is. I landed on a window porch, I walked over to the edge and looked down. I held my breath and jumped. It was a long way down. The air rapped itself around me, pulling me to the ground faster.

 

 

Chapter 16

Battle wounds; it’s a funny word right? It implies war. But you don’t get hurt only by battles, battle wounds can be created by yourself. A knife, a razor a blade. A smile, a tear a word spoken. If I was normal I would have to wear long sleeves, clothes over every scare. I would have wrote my goodbye note with a shaking hand, bleeding out from every cut. A sad child alone, except for all the misery.

 

The world is contaminated with sins. But I wasn’t scarred, I wasn’t bleeding out. I made it through the night and many more after that. I stood up feeling stronger. ‘Come on’ I whispered to Millie feeling the jolt after I landed. I smiled up at Millie, I knew I had to do this.

 

I caught hold of Millie and grabbed her hand and ran in the direction of a floor window. Climbing into an empty blue roomed bathroom, I quickly turned the light on. Looking around it was clean and filled with products. I opened the door and stuck my head round the corner. No one was here. Breathing in deeply I quickly caught on to Sol’s scent.

 

I ran in the direction knowing I no longer needed band aids to feel better, I needed truth. The truth would set me free. Running, air ran through my hair, winding and waving it was free. I quickly came upon the cellar. No one was guarding it, no one needed to.

 

I had been searching for so long for a place to belong, but now I knew I needed to be accepted for me. I won’t change for the world anymore. I stopped and walked slowly, Sol stood there looking pained. Alone and scared. It was his fault, he deserved this.

 

‘Sol.’ I called walking confidentially, I walked right up to his cage. I am not afraid.

Chapter 17

 

‘She’s out Liam.’ Dustin called over the phone, he sounded panicked. ‘Well what is she doing?’ I asked, exasperated. ‘Well she jumped out of her window. Ran in through the down stairs bathroom but I lost her.’ He replied sounding confused. ‘Well she’s inside, just go look for her, and were a little busy.’ I called, battle was all I wanted to think about. I could taste it on the tip of my tong. We needed this, no one gets away with eating humans, there weak. No one gets away with beating on the innocent, don’t pick a fight you know the other person will never win. I sighed, ‘Check the cellar.’ I whispered almost to myself, the thing that plagued Caiden most was confusion. She was always searching for the why, why wasn’t she enough? Why did her farther murder her mother? Why couldn’t she be happier, stronger?

 

I could almost see the clogs in Dustin’s brain working, he shifted back into human form and ran through the house in a haze of panic, but there she stood. Standing close to his cage. Asking him why, fighting for her right as a person. ‘Asking him why, part of her hated the rest of her soul so much.’ The monster in the cage laughed. ‘I will never despise you half as much as you hate yourself. Don’t think we don’t know how weak you are, how you dreamed for escape, for release. How your mate would save you, it was sickening. Guess you finally did the impossible and grew balls.’ He called back looking confident.

 

She roared, she marched forward and grabbed his chest. ‘I will and forever had more balls then you ever had. Omega.’ She called snarling in his face. ‘Think my farther will keep you now you’ve failed? What after he murdered his own wife, beat his hair? Really Sol I highly doubt it. The moon goddess will judge you, and she will find you guilty. He was right, I will find another mate because you are not worthy.’ In a few minutes she had turned into an Alpha, Dustin felt the power and took a step back. Something was happening in the room.

Chapter 18

 

I felt relieved, for once I felt no expectations. Nothing forcing me to be something I wasn’t. I felt stronger and more in control. I took a step backwards knowing I no longer needed answers. I no longer needed anything from anyone, I was just fine. Someone ding the bell for round two. The relief sent a burst of power, it almost sent me back off of my feet.

 

‘Freedom is powerful but accepting your destiny is another kind of power all together, you have done well young one.’ A white light seemed to etch its self into every nook and cranny covering the room. I couldn’t see a foot in front of me, let alone the person who was speaking. ‘Who are you?’ I asked softly. ‘Some call me mother of the wolves, others call me an angle or goddess. I believe in your beliefs I am known as the moon goddess.’ Her voice was like the sound a spoon made when contacting a crystal glass. Almost bell like, almost birdlike but different. ‘Why have you come, mother?’ I asked a little confused and worried. ‘To congratulate you Caiden Alpha of one.’ She replied, I could almost see her white smile. Almost. ‘Why ma’am?’ I asked still confused.

 

‘Because no one before you has accomplished what you have.’ She replied lightly. Yes no one has refused there mate, gone rogue, brought chaos to the dragons, adopted an enemy, gotten people hurt… The list could go on. She sighed, ‘You do not understand, Wolves and Dragons were not put on the earth as enemies. A long time ago they were allies. Against the darker forces.’ Her tone turned dark, ‘I believe the common tong for them now is Vampires, they were destroyed many moons ago. But time forgot, and a new war was waged. You, young defenceless wolf have changed this. I will reward you with another mate, on one condition.’ She called sounding wistful. ‘Thankyou mother.’ I called softly bowing my head. ‘Do not thank me yet child, for dangers are to come. Enemies come in the form of allies and friends can become enemies. Trust none but your instincts.

 

‘What is it that you wish for me to accomplish?’ I asked a little out of turn. ‘I wish for you to