No More Pain by Danea (recommended reading txt) 📖

brother and sister are still in there. I stoped. I saw this tree. It was so beautiful, it reminded me of my mother before she got on drugs. I started to climb it. Then i stoped i had found myself to the top of the tree. Then i herd a voice. It was jake.
Jake: liking the view what you doing up there
Me: umm just thinking
Jake: about what
Me: life i guess
Jake: i think about life sometimes
Me: yeah
I started to climb back down because the sun would rise soon and i wanted to be home before it came up.
Jake: so why you up here so early
Me: for a boy you do have alot to say
Jake: yeah i do
Me: well i gotta go home now see ya
Jake: ok see ya around
I walked back to the house. I saw kelly crying and miles was holiding her in his arms. I ran over to her. Kelly whats wrong. She didnt say anything.
Miles: dad hit her because she spilled some milk on the carpet
Me: oh my god im so sorry. I kep crying i took miles and kelly in my arms and held her tight as if there was no tomorrow. I had to go i couldnt stay. I took them to my room and put them in the bed so they could go to sleep. I didnt know what I was suppose to do. I walked downstaires. I saw my mom lying down.
Me: mom look i cant stay here neither can kelly and miles
Mom: what are you talking about
Me: im leaving and im taking kelly and miles with me
Mom: no your not
Me: what is it to you. Kelly just got hit were theres a bruise on her because she spilled some milk
Mom: look your dad was just mad
Me: hes always mad he hurts you and your kids and all you do is nothing you always are making excuses for him.
My mom smacked me. And i ran up the steps. I was crying. I didnt want to live, i went to the bathroom and got a razor i started cutting my arms and stomach. It felt good i guess l liked pain. I kept doing it. then kelly came in. I put my shirt down and my sleeves.
Kelly: are you bleeding
Me: yeah i fell
Kelly: are you ok
Me: yes just get out i shouted. She ran away and i cleaned myself up and walked out.
Chapter Five

I walked down the halls. I saw my use to be best friend Tammar. i walked up to her. hey tammar.
Tammar: oh hey long time no see
Me: yeah look i know we havent talked in a long time but i really need someone to talk to me right now so if we could just forget the past and move on.
Tammar: your dad assulted me
Me: i know but he has gotten better. I lied.
tammar: ok but I dont want to see him
Me: thats fine with me.
Then we walked hand and hand together down the halls.
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I was out mowing the lawn. I saw jake and waved at him. Then he came over.
Jake: i didnt know you mowed lawns
Me: and whats that suppose to mean
Jake: it means a girl like you i would never thought you would be mowing the lawn
Me: im not a girly girl you know
Jake: yeah whatever
Me: You better move unless you want every little piece of you choped up
Jake: is that a threat
Me: no its a warning
Jake: he started to laugh. Then my dad came out.
Dad: Young man get away from my daughter right now unless you want to deal with me
Me: dad hes fine we were just talking
Dad: shutup you get in this house right now
Me: no i yelled
Dad: are you trying to get smart with me
Me: no dad i walked in the house and i saw jake looked confused then he left.
Dad: look i asked you to mow the lawn and you trying to get some from a boy
Me: dad shutup
He smacked me and i fell to the ground. I got up and ran to my room. I couldnt take this stuff anymore i got my razor out and cut more and more. Then the phone rung.
Me: hello
Tammar: hey girl this tammar what you doing
Me: oh i was about to go to sleep
Tammar: in the middle of the day
Me: yeah i didnt get any rest last night
Tammar: ok ill call you later
Me:ok oh and thanks for calling.
Tammar: no probs.
Then she hung up and i laid on my bed feeling disgusted of myslef.

Chapter Six

I was walking home form school and jake was walking with me to.
Jake: are you ok
Me: yeah why you ask
Jake: its 80 degrees outside and your wearing long sleeves
Me: im cold
Jake: how could you be so cold
Me: why do you have to ask so many questions
Jake: ok sorry sorry but you have serious issues
Me: thanks
Jake: your welcome. Look i didnt know your dad was so protective
Me: you dont know alot of things about my dad
Jake: and whats that suppose to mean
Me: i dont know
Jake: well ok than
Me: why do you talk to me i mean a boy like you i would think would hang with the highschool jocks.
Jake: well maybe i like you
Me: i looked at him. Well if you knew the real me you wouldnt like me one bit
Jake: well show me the real you. He put his hand on my arm
Me: ouch i said.
Jake: he saw my sore. Did you hurt yourself did you fall
Me: no i ran home. I couldnt let him see all the marks on me. I saw my mom and dad on the couch drinking acohol.
Me: mama stop the drinking you have three kids. Do you wanna see us when were young adults.
Dad: shutup your mom can do whatever she wants
Me: you turned her like this
Dad: whats that suppose to mean
Me: i didnt say anything
Dad: yeah shutup
I walked to the kicthen and grabbed a tv dinner and poped it in the microwave.
Mom: honey get me some water
I grabbed a cup and put some water in it then handed it to my mom.
Mom: Thanks now go pick up your sister and brothers from school.
I walked out the house. I started to walk. Then i came up to the school. I saw kelly and miles waiting. I grabbed them and we started to walk home.
Kelly: tia i got an a on my homework
Me: thats great.
Then we got to the house and i went to bed.

Chapter Seven

I was sitting on my porch. Looking at the bright blue sky. I was just thinking of what it would be like if i didnt exsit. Then jake came up.
Jake: good morning neighbor
Me: hey jake
Jake: why do you seem so down
Me: im not down
Jake: every time i see you, you always got your head down and you look down.
Me: maybe i am down i turned my head a different direction.
Jake: well why you so down
Me: look it doesnt even matter
Jake: it matters to me
Me: look i have this story it was about this girl named mya and she had no friends because her dad assulted them. She was scared to live life and be around everyone. She thought the best way out was through pain. Her dad was so mean he wrapped a cord around her neck and she almost dies. Her mom is on drugs and her dad is up to no good. he abuses her and her brother and sister, and all she wants to do is protect them but how.
Jake: is that girl you
Me: i looked up and didnt say anything
Jake: look you can tell me anything.
Me: no i cant
Jake: look that girl you made up is it you
Me: yes tears started to come
Jake: its ok
Me: shutup no its not. I've been hurting myself because i dont feel loved. My life is gone
Jake: look it doesnt have to be
Me: i got up
Jake: where you going
Me: i dont know
He got up to.
Jake: look tia when i first saw you i thought you was the kinda girl who liked to laugh and play and just be fun, but i guess not
Me: i do want to laugh and play but my life is filled with sorrow and pain
Jake: So when i saw those scratches you didnt fall did you
Me: no i didnt
Jake: your sick
Me: jake if you really liked me you would just except me for who i am
Jake: look im sorry its just
Me: im digusting ugly and stupid
Jake: no your non of those things thats what i like about you
He kissed me and i kissed him back then kelly came out.
Me: umm jake i gotta go
Jake: yeah see ya