No More Pain by Danea (recommended reading txt) 📖

I laid on my bed when i herd a knock at the door. I ran down the steps but my dad opened it before i could get to it.
Dad: aint you the boy i saw with my daughter
Jake: umm yes can she come with me to the carnival
Dad: no
Me: dad why cant i
Dad: because your my daughter and im your dad and daddy says no.
I pushed my dad out the way and closed the door.
Me: umm hes not going to let me go
Jake: i know
Me: umm ill call you
Jake: ok
I walked back in the house my dad was starring me up and down.
Me: what is it
Dad: look sit down
I sat down.
Dad: look im only trying to protect you
Me: protect me, well you dont need to i can protect myslef.
I ran up the steps and satrted throwing stuff in my room.

I was oustide walking with my brother and sister.
Kelly: tia are we going to leave
Me: what do you mean
Kelly: i mean are we going to run away from all this
Me: i dont know
Miles: please i cant live in this house i would rather die
Me: miles dont you ever say that you here
Miles: im sorry
Me: its ok
Than jake came out.
Jake: so what happened you didnt answer my calls
Me: i was busy
Jake: with what
Me: you know things
jake: look did he hurt you
Me: no i yelled
Jake: why are you acting like this
Me: acting like what
Jake: your acting like you dont care
Me: jake my brother and sister are right here they dont want to here that
Jake: sorry
Me: umm jake i want you to know im leaving
Jake: what do you mean
Me: i mean im taking my brother and sister and were leaving
Jake: Then let me go with you
Me: no
Jake: why i mean you have no money i can get you that i have saved 5000 dollars for me o go to college but right now your more important
Me: jake i cant take your money you need to go to college and just cuzz im going through something doesnt mean i should mess up your life.
Jake: but i want to
Me: but where are we going to go
jake: somewhere not here
Me: we could rent a hotel
kelly & Miles: were leaving
Me: but i wanna take my mom
Jake: look we cant go we dont have any shelter
Me: but what can i do
Jake: i dont know but this you cant
Me: jake im scared i cant live like this
Jake: you dont have to
We kissed and he walked us home. i walked in the house.

I put kelly and miles to sleep and sat on my bed just thinking and thinking. I felt so hurt and sad and empty inside but i knew i wasn't going to feel this way for long. But what did i mean i don't know. I couldn't sleep either. so I walked down staires and into the kicthen to fix me some pasta. My mom came down staires.
Mom: baby what you doing up late
Me: i cant sleep so I'm cooking pasta
Mom: well that sounds good have you talked to your dad
Me: no and im glad
Mom: look honey your dad is a good person
Me: no he isnt't you don't know anything
Mom: baby whats that suppose to mean
Me: shutup dont call me your baby because if i was your baby, I stoped tears rolled down my eyes. Mama when i was little you told me you would always love me and protect me but now you have let me down you have giving up on me. I believed in you and you let me down
My mama looked puzzled.
Me: I liked the way you use to rock me in your arms and when i would get scared at night you would say everythings going to be ok as long as i am with you and i believed in you, i believed in you.
My mama was speechless.
Me: you were so much better before you met james and before you let him get you on those drugs now i don't know who you are but mama you can change you wanna change.
Mom: baby i've tried but i cant change.
Me: mama anybody can change as long as you put your mind into it.
Mom: baby i've tried
Me: then keep trying if you dont change then you won't have a daughter
Mom: baby you dont mean that
Me: i mean every word. I ran out the house i couldnt put up with her. I kept running. I knocked on jake door. His brother answered it. He looked at me as tears ran down my eyes.
Brother: umm you looking for jake
Me: yes, yes i am
Brother: well he sleep
Me: could you wake him up
Brother: i could
I started to cry more and his brother let me in. I walked to jakes room. There he was sleeping.
I tried not to wake him but i just did. He woke up surprised.
Jake: whats wrong
Me: can i sleep here tonight I just need to leave that house
Jake: yeah yeah
He moved over in his bed. I stood still.
Jake: ok i will make a pallet and you get the bed.
Me: thanks i got in the bed and went fast asleep.

I woke up and I smelled food coming from jakes room. I walked to the living room and there jake stood cooking. I laughed.
Jake: whats so funny
Me: your cooking
Jake: I always cook
Me: you need to stop
Jake: are you trying to say i cant cook
Me: thats excatcly what im saying
Jkae: well you cant cook
Me: oh really i walked up to him and took the fork and started scrambling the eggs.
jake: wow your good.
me: told ya
Jake: so what you gone do
Me: umm right now I don't wanna talk about it
jake: look you always trying to run away from something and you cant you need to talk about this
Me: and why is that
jake: becuas it could help
Me: help you or me
Jake: you
Me: jake see this is why i didnt want to tell you anything becuase your always telling me what to do
jake: everyhting i tiell you is right
Me: look i don't have time for this
Jake: I need to ask you a question
Me: what?
Jake: why when i scooted over for you to get in the bed you stood still
Me: well i don't like sleeping with people
Jake: but you sleep with your brother and sister
Me: umm jake my dad raped me
He looked puzzled.
Me: are you going to say something
Jake: look i love you so much i couldn't hurt you
Me: and i want to believe that
Jake: you can he touched me
I steped back.
Jake: relax
Me: i am relaxing
He touched me more and more than he started kissing me and kissing me everywhere
Me: umm jake stop now
He kept kissing
Jake i yelled.
He looked up.
Jake: im not going to hurt you
Me: but jake i dont want to do this
Jake: why?
Me: im just not ready
Jake: ok ok sorry
He walked to his room and i followed.
Me: jake your not mad are you
Jake: oh no
Me: ok i kissed him
Then he kissed me back and his hands traveled.
I kept kissing him this time i felt protected.
Then he went in i yelled and yelled. Then he stoped and looked at me and i smiled.

Finally school was over and the summer blossomed. I had so many plans but i just couldn't figure them out. I walked to kelly and miles room.
Me: hey miles you guys want to go to the park
Miles: sure
Kelly: do they have swings
Me: umm yeah they do so get your clothes on
Ok they said. I walked out and slipped on my shoes and we was out the door. I walked over to jakes house before we left to