Heartbreak? Love? Or Neither? by Alexandra Rader (book reader for pc TXT) 📖

sad, I wandered on.

Wishing for someone to just lean on.

 

Years flew by, and still no rest.

Was this a joke or some big test?

 

I entered High School with a new goal.

I just wanted to get out alive and whole.

 

My heart was broken multiple times.

I never broke theirs, it was always mine.

 

I tried and I tried to keep my smile.

To just go the extra mile.

 

I kept myself fly,

And tried the new high.

 

Emotions ran wild.

I was just like a child.

 

I cried and I cried.

No matter how I tried.

 

I threw myself in danger.

Fell in love with a stranger.

 

Don't even know where it started,

But I came out broken hearted.

 

Molested as a child, I was left scared.

Verbally abused, I was then bared.

 

I feared everything I saw.

Mainly myself and the law.

 

I wanted to live, I wanted to flee.

But somehow I knew I'd never be free.

 

Then to Morenci I moved and tried again.

Little did I know, my suffering would end.

 

At first I wanted to rebel.

I wanted to fight and yell.

 

MY HEART IS TRUE

I love you and my heart is true, but how can someone so special like you ever be with someone like me? So when you go please let me know and don't forget these words: "My heart is now and forever yours."

MY LOVE

My love is never ending

It goes to the end of time

It'll never stop

Not even with this rhyme

 

My love is like all time

It goes on forever

It will completely cover you

Me and my friends together

 

My love is like a giant tree

Reaching out to sweep the ground

It's got branches that are countless

And love is all around

 

My love is like the ocean

You might get lost at sea

It will go on forever

All you'll see is me

 

My love is like a kite

Soaring through the air

Flying with the wind

Letting you know I care

 

My love is like a smile

Always warming up your heart

It'll be there when you need it

Never at the end, always at the start

 

My love is like chocolate

Comforting and sweet

It'll make you feel good

Make you cool when you over heat

 

My love is like a river

Always trailing through the states

For indifference is the opposite of love

It isn't hate

 

My love is always here

It'll be here forever

Never gonna leave until it finds its match

And they wind up together

 

That's my love

And it will never end

For my love is yours

My very best friend

 

MY PROMISE TO YOU (NOVEMBER 2, 2013)

I promise to always lift you up when you are feeling down.

I promise to wipe your tears when you feel you need to cry.

I promse to keep you smiling, to show off that beautiful smile you have.

I promise to be your strength whenever you fall weak.

I promise to be your voice when you can't find the words.

I promise to be your eyes when you cannot see.

I promise to be your ears when you cannot hear.

I promise to always tell you what's real when you want to hear the truth.

I promise to be your dream catcher, to chase away your every fear.

I promise to be your smile when you're frowning.

I promise to always cheer you up when you are down and blue.

I promise to give you faith when you are feeling insecure.

I promise to keep you sturdy when you are feeling unsafe.

I promise to listen when you need to talk.

I promise to tell you no lies, just what is true.

I promise to always lend you my shoulder for when you need to cry.

I promise to always hold you when you need someone.

I promise to always care for you wherever you are.

I promise to always be there.

I promise to never hurt you and to never break your heart.

I can't promise you the world.

I can't promise you the sky.

I can't promise you that we will never fight.

I can't promise you that I will never cry.

But I can promise you that I will always be true to you.

And baby I promise that I will always love you more than anything, with all my heart.

No matter what happens or what we go through,

Baby I'll love you until the end of time.

That's my promise to you!!

MY SCREAM

Outside I seem alright

But inside's a raging war

My heart is hurting ever bad

And my mind's a living sore

 

You look at me and smile

And pretend to understand

But I see behind your mask

And your outstretched hand

 

You don't see me crying

Or feel my tortured pain

You say that you're different

But I know you're all the same

 

I wish someone would here my scream

That I need help breaking through

But you don't seem to care enough

To focus on anyone that's not you

 

I wish someone would understand

And come sit down by my side

To hold my hand and hug me

And say that I don't need to hide

 

But then again, I don't need you

I'll make it through alone

For I'm not very trusting

I hide out at my home

 

I'll just sit down and scream my wish

I'll scream it loud and clear

I'll scream for understanding

And for someone to stand near

 

Don't you hear the words I say?

The words I'm screaming out

My scream is being scattered

And being thrown about

 

I don't know why

I'm so hard to care for

I'm a person just like everyone else

But I'm the one thrown to the floor

MY STAND

I was struggling up the steep cliff sife

When I heard a voice say run and hide

 

At first I didn't understand

The voice persisted and yanked my hand

 

I stumbled down to the cliff floor

And was confused to see an open door

 

But when I tried to go through

The voice said, "No can do"

 

Ar first I thought you were having a laugh

Until I saw the broken graph

 

Everyone's name was in on the scene

But my senses hadn't been that keen

 

I was alone, back at the start

With nothing but my broken heart

 

I tried to go on like nothing was wrong

But no one could see my heart was long gone

 

I stopped for a minute to catch my breath

But in that instance happened death

 

Why couldn't I get a little break?

You put my heart at the stake

 

Ice crept into my lonely soul

And I started shaking with no control

 

I sat at the start for such a long time

Waiting for someone to carry me over the line

 

But that's not how this race works

I just have to get over the hurt

 

That's when I decided to make this end

That's when I finally took my stand

 

Imprint

Publication Date: 01-30-2016

All Rights Reserved

Dedication:
To all the people that have either broken my heart, or made it whole again.