Heartbreak? Love? Or Neither? by Alexandra Rader (book reader for pc TXT) 📖

once asked me what was on my mind

And I answered with a simple reply

"I don't know," is what I said

But it was, of course, a lie

 

"Kiss me, you thick-headed male!"

That is what went through my head

With this I think I will find a close

And lay down in an ice cold bed

I DON'T UNDERSTAND

Why can't I get it right?

Why does everything go wrong?

I don't understand it

What is it that I long?

 

I thought everything was going great

But then it all rushed down

I don't understand it

Why can't my life be sound?

 

I just want to be content

And have my life be serene

But every time I turn around

I have somone being mean

 

I wish I were stress-free

But I can't do anything right

My thoughts haunt me

And keeps me up at night

 

My life is complicated

And I'm confused all the time

I wish my life was happy

And that everything was fine

(I HOPE)

Why does everyone tell lies?

I don't know Hello from Goodbye

 

I'm tired of this shit

Just let me take the freaking hit

 

Stop trying to protect me

Just let me be

 

Please I beg of you

Stop trying to act true

 

Everyone told me that I was being used

But I didn't want that to be the truth

 

Sure the sex was great

But the opposite of love isn't hate

 

I can't take this shit anymore

My tears are falling to the floor

 

Go ahead and act like you care

But you were never there

 

I don't know what to think

Everything changes with a blink

 

Please forgive me if I'm wrong

But I've loved you all along

 

And now I can't even talk to him

It's my fault... It's not them

 

I don't know what else to say

But I know this pain will never go away

 

Please forgive me for everything

But I need to figure out some things

 

I'm so confused and lost

But nothing comes without a cost

 

There's nothing else to say

Things will be better someday

 

(I hope)

I JUST WANT TO REST (MAY 20, 2013)

I didn't think it would hurt this much

To know that I'll never truly be enough

Knowing that you could fall for another

Was enough to rip our hearts from each other

 

Waking up at night, without you by my side

Going through each day, not knowing if I'll be alright

 

Trying to stay busy, without you onmy mind

My heart stays with you and it's hard to find

 

Fighting back tears all through the day

Wishing you were by my side and that you'd never go away

 

My heart is broken and shattered in my chest

I don't want to keep going, I just want to rest

 

I can't go on without you in my life

My heart shoud be cut out with a knfe

 

I just don't want to feel this pain anymore

I know that I love you to my very core

I LOVE THE WAY YOU...

I love the way you smile

And the way you look at me

But there's just one thing I wonder

What is it that you see?

 

I love the way you hold me close

And look deep into my eyes

I love the way you laugh

And the way you gently sigh

 

I love the way you make me feel

When we sit and talk together

I love the way you love me

And never say forever

 

I love the way you take some risks

And give me that sideways glance

I love the way you kiss my lips

And offer me my chance

 

I love the way you whisper my name

Like it's sacred to your lips

I love the way you walk

And the way you bump me with your hips

 

I love the way you talk

And the way you roll your eyes

I love your facial expressions

As I catch you by surprise

 

I love the way you give me hope

By giving me some light

I love the way you say I'm wrong

But that we are always right

 

I love the way you share with me

Every secret and lie

I love the way you save me

From every tear I cry

 

I love the way you stroke my cheeks

And the way you stole my heart

I love the way you keep the past away

And give me a fresh new start

 

I love how you're a mystery

With every different piece

I love the way you treat me

Like we're Beauty and the Beast

 

I love the way you hold my hands

And whisper softly in my ear

I love everything about you

And the fact that you're always near

 

I love the way you make me laugh

When I'm about to cry

I even love your name

And how you never say Goodbye

 

Maybe I'm stupid or naive

But I think you really care

Cause every time I've needed you

You were always there

I don't know what to do or say

But for now I know I'm scared

I LOVE YOU

I love you

Do you love me, too?

If you do not

I will be blue

 

I do not care

What you say

And no you can't

Send me away

 

Can't sleep at night

Cry all day

If only you were here

Just a moment to stay

 

Now I do

Care what you say

And if you wish

I will go away

 

I just wanted you to know

That I love you

And am only wishing

That you love me, too

I LOVE YOU

I told you I love you -

You broke my heart

But even worse

You tore me apart

I LOVED...

I loved the way you looked at me

I loved the way you smiled

I loved the way you talked to me

Like I was the only thing that mattered

I loved the way you kissed me

And gently carrassed my cheeks

I loved the way you made me feel

When we were together

I loved the way you knew me so well

And knew when I was lying

When you looked at me

And whispered softly, "Liar"

I loved the way you did

What you knew you weren't supposed to

I loved the way you

Walked down the halls

And came straight to me

I loved the way you paid attention to me

How you gave me your undivided attention

I loved the way you whispered my name

Like it was sacred to your lips

I loved how you never looked at another girl

I loved the way you smelled

I loved how you were mysterious

With a smile always tugging at your lips

I loved the way you rolled your eyes

And the way you always talked to me

I loved the way you included me in everything

Even when others disagreed

I loved it when you shared your secrets

And teased me with your smile

I loved the way you held me

Like you'd never let me go

I loved the way you held my hand

And listened to only me

I loved how you were always kind

And never had any worries

I loved the way you made me feel

When you looked deep into my eyes

I loved the way you never left me waiting

Or ever kept me hanging

I loved the way you saved me

From every tear I've cried

I loved the way you never let me down

I loved the way you made me happy

Even on my worst days

I loved the way you spoke to me

Like I was the only one you trusted

I loved the way you treated me

Like I was a Princess

I loved the way you made me laugh

When I was about to cry

I loved the way

You never said Goodbye

I loved the way you swept me into your arms

And kissed my